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It’s painful and sad that I have no relationship with my dad. As you know, I’ve recently turned 50. For the most part, many elements in life that a younger me thought were important-education, career, wealth, having children-are likely established, they are what they are for me. For me now, it’s my relationships that are most important. I caused a lot of harm and pain to people I love. My focus has, for years now, been to clear the wreckage of my past. It makes me happy and helps keep me sober by trying not to hurt anyone today and trying to help where I can. I think of my own mortality now. Not abstractly like a young person “knows” they will some day die. Some day I’ll be gone and how will I be remembered? Will my daughter and now step-son recall me with love? I pray to become a grandpa. Through experiences, good and bad, I’ve gained some wisdom, perhaps. In the end, the only immortality anyone can achieve is through the love and memories of those we’ve left behind. I share any of this with you as my part towards clearing away the wreckage of my past. I apologize for many things, I harmed you, I wish I could have gotten sober sooner, I wish I had been smart enough, or compassionate enough to appeal to you sooner and help avoid all that transpired. I never consciously chose my mother over my father. In my mind it was forced upon me, as I could not stand by and witness lies and injustice, waste and malice. I can forgive you. Yet, I do not think it would be beneficial for me to re-engage with you. Should I outlive you, I will continue to maintain the story of a father who had worked so hard, and was gifted with intelligence and business savvy. He was a good enough dad when I was young. He was just missing something, there was a hole in his heart he couldn’t fill. Broken in that way, he wound up doing many unkind things I believe desperately trying to fill that hole. Buddhism teaches that life is suffering as a result of our constant grasping and reaching. In AA I learned that I have no control over people, just my own actions. I think these are universal human truths.
I hope you find peace and contentment and maintain good relationships with your family. Be good to your Mom, who has loved you so unconditionally forever.
DavidSon’s unbalanced response: “Your unprovoked threats sound so much of false bravado, an aged and weak Napoleon thinking he’s on Elba, when in fact it’s St. Helena.
How about you conduct yourself appropriately, paying your taxes and other bills and keep your properties from being foreclosed upon and stop doing any things that could land you in jail?
Too much to ask?
What is all this about? Was there a property agreement and you got was agreed to? But now you come back demanding more? (Well, actually you did that already, right? and were resoundly beaten and you lost quite a bit in extra cash and properties in judgments.) You know that by stopping the fight, you join the winners? Right? See how that works?
Why continue with the threats to steal more? Since you don’t need the money, it must just be pure malice. You cannot let my mother alone in peace.
When you do these things. I grudgingly have to spend time documenting and notifying the authorities. You have seemed immune so far, so more power to you. Bon Chance. The only thing that stops me from treating this more seriously is that it’s a waste of my time and unpleasant-it’s a work tinged with revenge and sadness-and I don’t enjoy that. My real work is nothing like this and far more interesting.
Below is a new funny one:
https://outwittrade.com/some-facts-on-emile-gouiran/
You are a curious piece of work. You try to come across like a bully. Feeble and delusional, with inflamed ego and marshall dreams you scream and stamp about. “Wars” and “battles”, “fronts” and “raw meet”, images of successes in litigating that are both twisted and imaginary.
But, you’re powerless and keep it up and I may just spend a couple minutes, expend a little money, if only to shine a light in your direction, and point the prosecutor your way.
I tried to talk nicely. With ZERO mention of my mom or money. And you’ve brought it here.
Needles to say. I know it’s the acquisition of money above all else that you love. You certainly don’t value the time with and affection from me. I cannot believe you have the audacity to demand money from me or my family. Just forget about that. It’s unbelievable.
Please just stop your frauds and lies and forgeries and everything else to hurt me and my family. Shut up about future lawsuits and about whatever the fuck “Janney” and other GFT nonsense you spout.
David
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